Changes

It's time for me to make some decisions. I've said it before (and hopefully I won't have to say it again)--I'm tired of living my life on other people's terms. I want to do things my way. It's not that I'm selfish and I want everything done how I want it all the time. I'm just not going to give so much of myself in order to please others. No relationship is 50/50; sometimes you take more, sometimes you give more. But I've noticed that, more often than not, I'm the one giving more. So I'm starting to make some changes. And if I make mistakes, then I'm going to own up to them. God is the one who's ultimately in control, and now I'm going to make decisions based on what He tells me to do, not what other people want me to do.

Three Good Things:

• Chocolate Festival (a fundraiser for my job) this weekend.
• Hey Arnold should be here tomorrow.
  
• I met someone who's willing to do things my way.
  

Smile

I'm feeling much better now. I'm about to start taking control of my life.

Step 1: The GRE and grad school.

Step 2: Getting out of credit card debt.

Step 3: Loving myself...by myself if I have to.

Breathe - Taylor Swift

Three Good Things:

• It's snowing and it's BEAUTIFUL.
• Katie's surprise birthday party tonight.
• I just had my first smile of the morning.
  

Starting fresh...

Just in case I don't have time to do this tomorrow, I want to make a list of resolutions for 2009. I'm doing it this way so it's in writing--I can't fudge or conveniently"forget" anything I've promised myself to do. Feel free to hold me to these; I'll probably need all the help I can get.

• Eat healthier (no pork or beef, soft drinks, and limited refined sugars to be specific)
• Work out more
• Have my first 4.0 semester
• Learn how to effectively budget and save money
• Call my dad's side of the family more
• Find a job I can see myself growing in
• Think of the positive before the negative
• Look decent daily (e.g. not just throwing on some clothes and slapping my hair in a ponytail everyday)
• Send a secret to Frank from PostSecret
• Go to church every week and pay my tithes regularly
• Adopt an angel from the Salvation Army Angel Tree at Christmas
• Smile more
• Sleep regularly
• Drink more water
• Write in this blog at least once a week
  

I know it's a lot, but I need to do these things; I'm hoping to be a better person in '09--it's time for change.