"I would turn Barack Obama OUT...God BLESS America!" -Me
"I'm not THAT good; I just know how to front in front of parents." -B
"You are taking this thing so cereal." -Magnus
"I'm going to smoke a cigarette wearing nail polish, and then I'm going to take it off and smoke a cigarette NOT wearing nail polish." -Joele
'Maybe you just have chameleon lips--they change to the color of the lip gloss." -Me
"I've been waiting my entire life for this crit topic!" -Beth
"I just go for the shock and awe." -Chet
"Why don't you take a look at your life and then tell me about mine??" -The Wiki Speech Team
"Ugh, now I smell like a woman." -Marcus
"I don't plan, I just react." -Junior
"I want a TOY!" -Magnus
"Did you see how I used my fin???" -Katie
"I just wonder how it's gonna look whenever I get old--a dirty old man talking about prostitutes and strippers and looking up male escorts online." -My Sexuality in Society professor
"Oh. I'm building a deck." -My 11
"How do you expect to get OVER him if you keep getting UNDER him?" -Me
"I have negative boobs." -Colleen
"Hey, don't jab the corn!" -Megan S.
"I'll be glad if I never see another no-bake cookie." -Mom
"I think I'm just gonna eat a loaf of bread and watch 'Gilmore Girls.'" -Katie
"I feel like sometimes I would like to date myself because then I would know what my self liked, and then my self would know what my self liked." -Corn
I've spent the better part of today updating my Monster.com profile. There are going to be some personnel cuts at my job and I'm just trying to get ready.
Whew. It just seems like one thing after another these days. It kind of reminds me of a few months ago, when I would think about my credit card debt and literally feel like I was drowning in it; my head would spin, my heart would race, and I just couldn't seem to take another breath.
But everything will be okay; I know it will. Even if I do get downsized, I'll make it through just fine. I'm going to have to leave this one up to God. Sorry things have been so depressing here lately, but what can I say? I'm going through a rough time. Hopefully things will look up soon.
I'm sitting at my desk at work, fighting back tears. I've never tried so hard to get my life together. I'm really working to make myself a better person. But it seems like every time I do something right, another piece of my life slides out of place. I honestly don't know what to do anymore.
I enrolled myself in a debt management program; I went a little crazy with a couple of credit cards and decided to get help with my debt. I've been paying on time every month since February. And still, I'm getting bills from creditors asking for late fees. One of my medical bills has gone to collection. People keep asking for money, and it's getting to the point that I don't know where it's going to come from anymore.
More and more I find myself wishing that I wasn't who I am. I want to be someone else, someone who doesn't have to struggle every single day to stay above water. I guess it's good in a way; I'm being motivated to do better with the hopes that I won't have to work so hard all the time, that I'll find one job--instead of three or four--that will pay my bills. I'm trying to channel all the negative energy into positive thoughts, but some days--like today--are so much harder than others.
Through the grace of God, I just got paid for one of my writing jobs; I got the bulk of the money yesterday, and the rest is coming today. Tomorrow I'll deposit the cash. Friday, I'll write two checks and hand the money I worked so hard for to someone else. Every night, I'll pray that someday soon I won't have to worry so much.
I have to many jobs to blog. But now it's vacation time and I'm gonna relax, damn it!
I'm leaving to judge NFA tomorrow--I'm the most excited to see everyone! I've planned two outfits for every day: dressy and casual. I also got a weave. I'm not kidding. Looking fly at this tournament is serious.
I'm going to miss my boyfriend, but I'm glad to get away for a while. I work really hard and I'm finally getting some time to enjoy myself. :)
I'll post pics and stories throughout the trip when I'm not too busy being sassy and fabulous. :)