Happy Black Girl

If you guys know me at all, you know I'm a huge Twitter fan. I'm constantly tweeting what I'm doing, where I am, and what I'm thinking, and I'm always trying to get others to do the same. Heck, there's even a Twitter widget on this blog. (Look to the left. Now down just a bit...see it? Good. And if you don't have a Twitter account, get one NOW! And then request to follow me. Thanks.)

One of my good friends and favorite poets, Saeed Jones, is one of the few people I consider a bigger Twitter junkie than myself. He's constantly tweeting about his poetry, his friends, and just the things that he feels need to be said. One of his tweets was something he re-posted from one of his friends. It said one thing over and over: happyblackgirl.

For my whole live I've been a certain "type" of black girl: the smart black girl, the sexy black girl, the sassy black girl, the lonely black girl, and (one of my least favorite) the "white" black girl. But now I'm claiming the title of "happy black girl" for myself. I finally feel happy and fulfilled. I love my family, my friends, my job, my apartment...my life. Right now things are exactly where they need to be and I have to thank God for that.

Happy - Natasha Bedingfield

Three Good Things:

• It's snowing and it's BEAUTIFUL.
• I'm having dinner tonight with a close friend (but I'll make sure my diet stays in check).
  
• SS made it safely to California for the national championship game--GO LONGHORNS!

"Take a deep breath, girl."

Whew! Hectic is a VAST understatement for what's been going on at work today. The phone's been ringing off the hook, my desk is completely covered in paperwork--typical Monday-after-a-holiday hysteria. Things have finally started to slow down (knock on wood), so I thought I'd take a few minutes to let you know what's been going on.

After last night's meltdown and a few encouraging words from someone special, I'm feeling much better. In keeping with the advice of an extremely wise and amazingly gorgeous man, I will now list three good things about my life/day at the end of every post. This is a great way to count my blessings and give myself an instant mood lift. So, here goes!

Three Good Things:

• I got free pizza for lunch today at work.
• It's supposed to snow this weekend.
• I have been craving pickles for the past two days, so I'm going to buy myself a jar after work today.
  

I'm planning on just staying in tonight; I'll probably watch a movie, wash my hair, read more of my GRE prep book, and clean up my apartment a bit. Hopefully I'll get to bed a bit earlier to catch up on the sleep I missed last night. Speaking of missing sleep, the fact that I couldn't fall asleep last night seems like a bad thing, right? But I used the time that I was awake to read my bible, and I found a verse that really spoke to me:

"I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.' The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will also show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men." Lamentations 3: 19-27, 31-33

See? I'm getting better at looking on the bright side already. :)

Can you retract a retraction?

Okay. So I may have spoken a little too soon about speaking too soon. I know that sounds ridiculous, but everyone makes mistakes, right? I'm sure this sounds a bit cryptic, but since I don't think anyone actually reads the nonsense I write here, I think I'll be okay.

The rest of my vacation was fantastic. It had its ups and downs, but at the end of the day I know so much more than I once did. I'm no longer planning, but reacting. :) I've learned that I worry too much and I think too deeply. While that's not necessarily a bad thing, it can make situations much more complicated than they should be. I'm looking forward to seeing what happens next with Marcus and I; hopefully I'll find my happy ending by taking things one day at a time.

Anyhow, I think it's time for a snack and a nap--driving to and from the airport always drains my energy. My apartment seems too quiet now and I'm not sure what to do with myself since he's gone back to LA. This sounds cliche, but I can't wait to see him again. Hopefully our reunion will be sooner than later.

In My Ears: Jay-Z, 'Run This City'; The-Dream, 'Rockin' That Shit'; Hairspray: The Soundtrack to the Motion Picture

Vacation

My boyfriend is here. I'm so, so happy. I can tell this is going to be a great vacation.